“There is a magnet in your heart that will attract true friends. That magnet is unselfishness, thinking of others first; when you learn to live for others, they will live for you.”
-Paramahansa Yogananda

~ SELFLESSNESS IS THE TRUE SELF ~

Soon I will be taking an oath to deepen my commitment to this truth. I have long been on a painful journey to expand my awareness for the benefit of All. I make no claims to saintliness or altruism because as any mystic will tell you: this is the only game in play. What is Good for All is Good for One. So one could inversely state that Selflessness is in Truth, Selfish. This is also valid and I accept it too. And of course, I have failed time and time again to uphold the ideals I hold dear because I have been weak, flawed, imperfect.

The point is when one really makes a commitment in the way I intend to. Like really-really… it is good to do so publicly. I will be doing so at Glastonbury. An intensely sacred space for me. Where I first made contact with my Holy Guardian Angel (if you have no idea what I mean by this google it – just remember this is a label, just a name, not the thing in itself, take nothing literally, especially in the worlds of magick and mysticism. These are worlds of metaphor where the storyteller is king). I will then record that here too. I expect this oath to bind me socially, practically and magically. An oath is not undertaken lightly. I have not picked this time but it has picked me. I have been paying attention to my signs and listening to The Voice of my Angel. The Truth of my Heart. I have come through so much pain, sorrow and fear to find the Beauty that it is in Truth. My fear was blocking me like a Guardian on the Threshold but I have passed the gate. Not by overcoming fear but embracing it. Loving it. As I Love All.

I find at the heart of my heart, from wherein my light shines brightest, is a secret centre. In that centre. Is No Thing. No Mind. No One. I have been terrified all this time of becoming my self. Of annihilating my illusion of self and leaving no thing in its wake. This terrible emptiness is the core of my being. And it is Love. For it would annihilate All in Its embrace.

Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels’
hierarchies? and even if one of them pressed me
suddenly against his heart: I would be consumed
in that overwhelming existence. For beauty is nothing
but the beginning of terror, which we still are just able to endure,
and we are so awed because it serenely disdains
to annihilate us. Every angel is terrifying.
— Rainer Maria Rilke, Duino Elegies

In the utter Darkness of Chaos, where my angel calls to me: “I love you”. I will now reply.

“I love All things.”

May we be united. May our annihilation forever fuel the life force that burns in the heart of every star. May the UniVerse sing the One Song through its willing servant and may those divided for love’s sake, be remembered, as One.